Recorded on March 4th, 2015

It’s my birthday today.

I should probably add an exclamation point to that announcement. Maybe later. Call it the birthday blues or this lingering, horrible winter most of us are having but my heart’s not in a joyful mood. Still, I know I have plenty to feel blessed about. This past year has been great to me when it wasn’t punching me in the gut.

One topic that has been recurring is mortality. Death has never been something I’ve spent a lot of time contemplating. I don’t even feel “my age”. Sure I spend a lot of time on career hustling, 401K monitoring, and optimizing my mortgage (because #grownassman). But I still devour pop culture, new music and video games.

However, I am getting older. And my friends are getting older. And our parents… Well, let’s just say there’s been a lot of death lately. Fatal police actions, the deaths of favorite celebrities, friends, extended family and my own mother and aunt has drilled home how life is short and precious. Sometimes I miss my mom so deeply all I can do is sit still.

Sitting still is not the answer though. My current struggle is to use memories of my mom and others to fuel positive action. It’s difficult to shift my mind to that goal but I’m trying. And there’s no better time than now to practice being a better person than I was last year, last month, or yesterday.

But first, a few cocktails, some good food, and hearty laughs with friends. That should help. 

And in case I haven’t told you lately, I love you (especially you).